Why Is It So Hurtful?

You started to be comfortable with someone you know.
You started to like his weaknesses and you tried to deal with them.
You thought nothing but things he liked to watch.
You thought the world seemed to stop just to understand your feels.
You had no doubt about yourself around him.
You had control power of yourself to make him feel better - and possibly loved.
You felt he could fix you to get out of your black hole.
You felt two souls could see each other's eyes with the same heart.

But,
You start to match every bad luck and tight them up.
You start to hide your hopes into your black hole.
You think his past is as scary as yours.
You think he thinks you are as same as the others - nothing much.
You have a lot of doubts about everything around him.
You have no rights to make him feel better or worse.
You feel there is no light seeing this opportunity.
You feel too happy yet too much pain in one situation.
At the end you'll ask yourself, "Why is it so hurtful?"

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August 27th, 2019, feeling a bit blue.