Comfort Zone: Being Sick

This is not what it looks like.

Hear my story first, then you'll sum up yourself.

I've been thinking about myself and my healthy life style recently. It's annoying, knowing that my weight is a little bit over-weight than normal people have. I have a disease history and sometimes it got relapsed. I once had typhus when I was about 11 years old; I did any activities that I could and I forced myself to do those and unconsciously my body felt both hot and cold, and exhausted for days. And it was when all started. I already got typhus for more than three times. The distance of me being sick of typhus could be close, it's about more or less a couple years. There's always a feeling and symptoms before I get sick. When I eat too much spicy food combine with forcing myself to do stuffs till late, I start to feel it. The more I feel, the more I fear. This is probably the worst thing I have in my life, be afraid of getting and feeling what I don't want to get, and feel. I can't say it's trauma, but it's more like that... I guess. 

So, what I'm trying to say here is that I'm not comfortable being sick (who wants to get sick, no one for sure). But my body feels like that it's its comfort zone of being sick (again and again). The effect of it in my life could be anything. I can't force too much doing my normal routines (but in my college life, it's all about forcing yourself to reach the goals), I can't get too tired and having less healthier food all the time. I mean, this is all my fault. I started to have cheating life and bad life style, by not having healthy food oftentimes, and having less exercise. I always try to do new things in having healthier life style, but when I force to be healthier (like recently I'm on diet), I get sick too. So I think my body can't accept anything that is over and too much of things. Normal life is the best choice to my body. But, you know, when you want to get out of your comfort zone and you need to do a little bit harder and challenge yourself, it could be better for your experience. What I mean about challenge myself is to do beyond my limit, not just about being healthier, but being better as a person. 

You may say I'm talking nonsense, but I'm just trying to share what I think about my body. And so far, I love it, and I try to love more about my weakness. You should too.