When You Shut Your People Down

Hi.

I'm going to bring up a topic that is quite hard to understand, and I hope you're still okay with this one.

You sure all have the people you like, you love - who are always there to cheer you up. You sure have the people who don't hesitate to say hi to you first, who never forget to chat you first to catch up with you and your life updates. You sure have the people who do big things for the sake of your happiness - even if they're only a few ones. 

But, what if you shut them down? 

There's this time you are afraid of being opened to most of people. You are so afraid of being judged until you realize all these things are not worth to be talked about with your loved ones. Have you felt, at that moment, most of your efforts seemed to go amiss? There's this time you feel like crying but you surely think that crying definitely isn't a solution? And when that happened, you start to be quiet all of sudden - and this is the dangerous part: you start to shut people down. There are a lot of negative things in this world, A LOT. And this thing could happen if you let those negative things come into your mind - even it's just a few ones. 

What I'm saying that being in a circle of that phase will make you walk in the same feeling: heartless. Maybe you will feel the pain, but it comes from yourself. For people who are struggling to avoid that feeling and most of the times it's still coming back, I know what it feels like. I have a problem with that feeling as well. The way negative things come to you easily is just a very unfortunate thing that I have, that maybe people out there have. I'm not regretting this happen to me. Although it seems like a weakness to you, I feel like it's the only opportunity for me to see things in both sides. I AM still trying to be more open to things that happen continuously in this life cycle. 

Back to the topic. When you shut your people down, I think it's common for people to do that - as long as it's not too much and dramatic. I do that to clear my mind, to see what I should do in the future in a long term, to realize if my do-things were good enough for me and people around me, to basically reflect yourself. You were born to socialize with people. But it's really fine to stay away from them for a while, then you can come back with your new fresh mind.

I think I'm saying all these things to myself. to remind myself that it is both okay and not okay to shut people down when you feel like you actually shut yourself down. The point is that you have to believe in yourself first, that's the key. Believe that you can do great things to yourself, to your family, to the world. For some people it's very easy because they already have power in their mind, but for some people it's the opposite because they have to build up that power, the belief. The next point is that you have to get closer to Your Creator, this is also the key. If you don't have people to talk to, if you feel like you can't be open to people, be open to God - He always listens to you no matter what. 

In conclusion, I don't expect you to be sympathetic to what I feel right now, I just need you to understand - not only to me, but to people who seem to shut their people down. There must be some sort of reasons why people do things differently than they usually do. 

Thank you for reading this, though. :)